farewell is always the hardest thing to do

hahah today can say it was a rather emotional day bahx~?

pon sch today to send off my friends at the airport~ =P
i was scared like crap that our principal/head honcho wld appear~ LOL
cos whether i cld remain studying is all up to the sch committee~ and if he sees i pon sch~=.= ultimate gg~ lmao

anyway~ gave both saki and tomoyo cards that i SUPER last minute drew so kinda messy and all~ =.=
hahah the crazy part was that the girls, who went with me and the si extra kaypoh who wanted to come, rushed over to scream and take pictures and all with the guys~ =.=

buay pai seh lorhx they all~=.=
hahah i was like so embarrassed by the loud behaviour lorhx~! LOL~!! =P

hahah anyway took pictures... BUT I DUNNO WHO TO COLLECT FROM SIA~!! =((
then chatted arnd, waited for them to finish checking in and took more pictures~ XDD
i am missing them already sia even while writing this~ =.=

OHOH~!! and the happiest thing that happened to me was that my sensei gave me a present~!! =D it meant alot to me and was very special~^^ it was a one of a kind and thats why i was so protective of it... i wanted it be MY special thing not part of a mass production thing...
so even if u guys say i am selfish and lazy or wat i dun care... u guys shld have understand that...=.=
it is a picture of my coolest, funkiest and most memorable friends... my dearest class =)

slowly but surely... they left... one by one through the departure gates...
how my heart swells with the urge to leave with them... =/



how long more will it be before we see each other again my friends~? i do hope it wld be soon... take good care my friends and i hope the best for all of u~ till we meet again... sayonara~ (^-^)p


well i have been thinking alot today (well actually it was sleeping mostly =P)
and slowly my mind wandered off and started thinking of all the friends that i have made since ...well since i cld rmb~?
how many of them have remained from the times we were happy having fun tgt till this very moment~?
how many of them have stayed by my side when i was down and out~?
how many were hypocrites~?
how many from acquaintances became good friends only to float away~?
how many are loyal~?
how many have i been there for~?
how many have i let down~?
how many are annoying yet friends nontheless~?
how many are annoyed by me~? =P
how many i disregarded~?
how many i broke off with cos something i/we/they did~?
too many questions too many...

it was those memories that flooded my mind...
someone once told me that friendship is just an illusion...
only when people need each other so as to make use of them THEN do they forge these so-called friendship...
well i did emo and believe that before when i was like very young... (6 to 7 years back i think~?) after all my past experiences and based my friendship on wat i can gain... but soon realised that the hurt that was involved was not worth it for both parties...(btw this is my own experience and thots... in no way shooting anyone~=.=)
hurmz~food for thought ehx~?

i dunno wat to believe except that only time will tell who are ur true friends~ =)
hahah i know for some people this coming from me can be very ironic~ but hey i value friendship better than u know